The Retractile Penis

 The whole "being retracted" was probably the hardest thing for me growing up. 

 Your friends don't see you dick ERECT usually, they see you FLACCID, in the locker room or the shower at school. For many of us with a micropenis that means we are "retracted" like a turtle pulling his head into his shell, when we are soft. 

 All through school I was athletic -- swimming, basketball, track, baseball, wrestling -- so my friends only saw me naked after workouts in the locker and everyone knows EXERCISE does not make your dick look bigger. Nor does the cold water in a swimming pool. So my friends and peers at school always saw me fully retracted, which meant my flaccid penis was completely inside of me except for a tip of foreskin peeking. 

 I didn't get teased for having a small penis I got teased for having NO penis. 

If you have seen photos of a retractile penis you may understand this. It does seem missing. I have not taken photos of me retracted very often and will include them here today.  

When retracted it does look like the penis is missing.  Especially in public hair. A couple of boys in class who were very overweight also had retracted penises, but they were, naturally, not in athletics, so no one saw theirs. I got teased for being "dickless" a lot. I got teased for using the stall instead of the urinal. That motivated me to try to use the urial but that didn't always work out. I didn't hit 3.3 until my Freshman year of college, so in high school I was still 2.5 or so fully erect. Trying to coax some shaft out to be able to use the urinal literally took some practice. For those of you without a micropenis, coaxing it out means tickling the tip until enough stimulated blood flow goes in so that you get a partial erection with enough to bring the shaft out from inside. You have to have a bit of shaft to hold to use a urinal or it gets messy. I wet the front of my pants. 

 There were some roomers in school that I was a hermaphrodite because I had both a vagina and a testicles. Some guys saw my retractile penis (just a hole above my testes)  as a woman's organ. 

 When I got depantsed at the pool while erect in front of the whole PE class, then it seemed my whole school got acquainted with "micropenis". The boys who did that to me got suspended, or detention, but the damage was done and I was outed and it was the most significant thing that happened to me in school. It changed my whole identity to "the boy with the tiny dick". And in rural Oklahoma that meant a few towns over knew about it too. I kid you not. 

 It's all about ignorance. I mean that. People attack and make fun of what they do not understand, and what is different. It has taken me YEARS too begin to accept myself as fine the way I am. The thing as an adult that you have to learn is that EVEN when you learn to accept yourself you still have to contend with others who WILL NOT. 

 People still judge me. 

 I have to then make decisions on what to do with those people. Some I have had conversations with them and been able to salvage the relationships, helped them to understand and not to judge, others (who kept judging) I have to learn to walk away from for my own well being. I have also had to develop a sense of humor because you cannot fight EVERY fight. You have to learn when to set limits and when to let it go.

I am not perfect. I don't understand everything, and not even everything about myself. 

 I am still like everyone else. I have a micropenis and I get lonely, and I date, and I have fuck buddies, and I have fetishes, and... and... 

 I will probably never get married again. I almost didn't survive that one. I may have more unconventional relationships. During my time as a sub I developed some rather unconventional fetishes, and that's another story. The main thing is that I learned during that time was to be a bottom and. OMG, orgasms were forever changed when that happened.

So yeah, my retractile penis has driven my life, or rather learning to adapt to it has changed my life. But its a good life and the only one I get. So I will make the most of it and enjoy the hell out of it.